High hopes but low expectations
The couple past weeks I have been promised cool trips to USA cities, nature parks and whatnot, and people have cancelled them. I get that these people live their lives here and are not on vacation, like me. However, sometimes I find myself waiting for a certain day in the week cause I’d have plans with someone, and they would cancel on me the night before. Apparently this is an LA mindset, living by the day, and I get where it’s coming from, but I hate it.
I hate waiting the whole week for some cool weekend trip that isn’t going to happen. I am scared of trusting people on their word now when they say we’re absolutely going to do something cool! I know I should live my own life here too but I want to believe those people when they say we will be meeting up and go to a beach or a mall or a coffee place or anything. Anything so I won’t sit alone at home with a dog and a tv, thinking about actual home.
I still have high hopes for cool things that might happen. Thursday I will (might) go out with girls I met yesterday and then spend the day at their house and go to San Diego. Today I will go to the studio. I still have to buy some presents and shoes. I am not scared of the plans, I am scared of the dissapointments.